Dorkisms - just can't outgrow them can I?

After a hiatus of doing or saying utterly embarrassing things, here's a *mega* dorksim - perhaps it was God trying to warn me to be patient and to look before I take my next step!

Last saturday was an opening to see a new housing development called Cathedralpark. We had pre-registered to check it out - just to see what was up, since it was just down the street from our place. My mom was in line and I came from church and had picked up a large coffee for me, and a tea for my mom (plus a pack of 10 timbits that I had stuck in my purse). I'm walking up the roughly paved driveway towards the presentation centre; and had passed by two men who had almost knocked me over. I was just thinking - wow I had better be careful - I could get knocked over (on my heels) into the ditch in front of all these people!! I was even a bit ticked off because the two men didn't even move and knocked my shoulder a bit, while I was just centimeters from the ditch. Thankfully I had passed them without incident!

As I was walking onward on my own and suddenly, I lost my footing! I went flying - my coffee and my tea went flying across the parking lot, spilling all over the ground. Meanshile, I'm flying onto my knees and hands, doing a half roll - it was one of the worst spills I've ever had..on pavement. It was like a wipeout on the ski slope, except I was wearing my church clothes, heels and *had* two cups of hot liquid in my hands. There were tonnes of people around (all in line to get into the presentation centre). This lady ran over to help me up; it must have been such a bad looking fall - because she kept on apologizing to me - but it wasn't her fault, she just felt sooooooooo bad for me.

I had to go and pick up my coffee cups rolling around on the pavement. I still had 1/2 a cup left (which I still drank! I'll be damned to take a spill and have no coffee!)

I have a big bruise on my knee..

and on my pride! but that's gone now!

Perhaps that was a sign from God to take it easy - and not try to hurry to look at houses! Hehehehe

goodnight

Wow it's been a long time!!

I kinda forgot about my blogsite. Haha - i think everyone else has too. So this is really a meaningless message for..me.

I don't really have a current dorkism to add; nor a biblical reflection; nor a relfection at all for that matter. Boy i've must have gotten very dull and brain dead over the last few months!

The only comment I can make is..hmm, I watched Pride & Prejudice (Keira Knightly version) over the weekend and forced poor kkhho to watch it too. It still remains my *Favourite* Jane Austen story; now looking to watch the BBC version..next time it will likely be on my own.

Hmm - another random thought..is that I think I've lost my nerve to watch horror movies now. I used to like watching; and look forward to the scary ones..now that there are so many out there, I feel like i've suddenly become such a chicken about them. oh boo..

goodnight...to...me...

Psalm 127

Unless the LORD builds the house,
its builders labour in vain.
Unless the LORD watches over the city,
the watchmen stand guard in vain.

In vain you rise early
and stay up late,
toiling for food to eat -
for he grants sleep to those he loves.

Sons are a heritage from the LORD,
children are a reward from him.

Fishers of men...

"The greatest argument for Christianity is a Christian. The greatest argument against Christianity is a Christian with dirty 'nets'"

Oh how I long to have pure nets that are only deemed worthy for your work by your grace.

Tax Tax Tax :D

Yay! I got my 2004 refund check in the mail today! That sure took a long time - maybe for 2005, I'll file my taxes on time. At least now I have additional cash to purchase RRSPs for 2005! Hahahah this is perfect.

In return to the CRA and the taxpaying society at large, I decided that this year I would volunteer for the free CA Tax clinics. I signed up - anyone else want to? :D I don't really know how to fill out a paper copy of the tax return. The last time I did that, it was in 4th year in Waterloo. I wonder if I can use Taxprep for the clinic. Thankfully the Institute offers a briefing session for CAs for the clinic :D I don't know any of my rates or allowable deductions anymore!

There are so many Christian CAs in Toronto - even in TCCC. Maybe next year we should get our act together earlier and hold a tax clinic at church.

Anyway, I'm looking forward to doing this, it's been a long time since I've volunteered in anything in Toronto.

One Year

It's been just over a year. I wonder what she's doing right now. Is she singing Hallelujah and dancing with Jesus? Is she silent as His feet in awe? Is she in the room that He prepared for her? Does she have a stylish set of gleaming white robes? At least she doesn't need to imagine any more.

I can only imagine what it will be like
When I walk by your side
I can only imagine what my eyes will see
When your face is before me
I can only imagineI can only imagine

Surrounded by your glory
What will my heart feel?
Will I dance for you Jesus?
Or in awe of you be still?
Will I stand in your presence?
Or to my knees will I fall?
Will I sing hallelujah?
Will I be able to speak at all?
I can only imagine
I can only imagine

I can only imagine when that day comes
And I find myself standing in the Son
I can only imagine when all I will do
Is forever, forever worship you
I can only imagineI can only imagine

I can only imagine
When all I will doIs forever, forever worship you
I can only imagine.

This is Nob Yoshigahara. He invented Rush Hour. My Hero. 

Rush Hour

Today I went to Toys R Us to look for some Christmas toys for a couple of kids. Didn't find any, but instead, I bought myself a cool game! Rush Hour - it won 19 awards and is the game of the year. I came across this when buying a present for Rosie's "Screw Your Neighbour" Christmas exchange. Hahah, I tried to steal my own gift back because I wanted it more than the other gifts :D

Anyway, Bullpen Larry and Linda won out and got the 2 games we brought. So I bought my own! Its a one person game and the object of the game is to get the red car out of the traffic jam.

http://www.puzzles.com/products/RushHour/RushHourAnm.htm

Yay - oodles and oodles of fun. I will likely not be on messenger for a while.

Christmas - I see it's about buying gifts for myself...

Missing Heaven by 18 Inches

During Kyrios, T-Ben a counsellor at the fellowship at the time had given us an article titled Missing Heaven by 18 Inches. It's 18 inches between our brain to our heart. The gist of the article was that we may know a lot of head knowledge about who God is, who Jesus is and what Jesus did for mankind when He voluntarily got crucified on a cross. But what truly matters is if we believe it in our heart that Jesus Christ is God, and that through His horrible and lowly death, we are saved from God's eternal judgement.

Lately, I've felt challenged to relook at whatand how I've been reading and learning in the Bible. Its been a struggle of head vs. heart lately - that many things I've been reading and learning are mere facts. I've been listening to the mp3 lectures that GY downloaded for me on Introduction to Theology and been learning some really interesting things. But I think I've fallen into one of the things the professor in the lectures warned about, which was not to take the Bible as a textbook of information, but really of God's Holy and Living word. The prof said that as Christians studying the word in a systematic manner, we need to remember that it's not just to know His Word, but it's to believe in His Word. Its easy for me to quickly answer, yes I believe this. But for it to actually shape my thoughts, actions and perceptions, it takes faithful and meditative understanding of the implications of His word. I think this is what I've been lacking lately.

A few weeks ago at Oasis Christian Community, the passage was on James 2 (my favourite book!) - faith and deeds. James 2:14-19

What good is it, my brothers, if a man claims to have faith but has no deeds? Can such faith save him? Suppose a brother or sister is without clothes and daily food. If one of you says to him, "Go, I wish you well; keep warm and well fed," but does nothing about his physical needs, what good is it? In the same way, faith by itself, if it is not accompanied by action, is dead. But someone will say, "You have faith; I have
deeds." Show me your faith without deeds, and I will show you my
faith by what I do. You believe that there is one God. Good! Even the
demons believe that—and shudder.

It says that even the demons know that there is a God. It speaks nothing to just know God's word if I don't allow it to change me. I've been lacking that lately. Though sometimes I don't know how to get back to it - how to read the Word and let it change me, convict me, rebuke me.

It occured to me that belief and faith in God's Word goes much further beyond
belief in the basic doctrine. I think that was the simple part. Not that I
don't believe other passages aren't true or aren't God's promises, but to
believe in it such that I can trust all my life to it even if sometimes it is
contrary to human and society's reason - that's the hard part.

As per Mulder's poster - I want to Believe.